In January 2021 I was diagnosed with stage 3 bowel cancer. Boom. I had surgery, and now I’m fine. Well…
When the surgical team took away my tumour they left behind a large amount of anxiety – which is spreading.
I’m currently trying to stop the spread of cancer-related fear and anxiety into my professional life.
A cancer diagnosis can trigger a whole load of anxieties.
Mine set off vivid nightmares about Jeremy Corbyn moving into my back bedroom and being chased by a tiger through a forest at night. Scary allegorical stuff.
I also experienced multiple cycles of fear, which turned into relief and then optimism. The strength of the fear-cycle fluctuated from mild to extreme.
At times the fear has been so raw that I can feel the tiger’s breath on the back of my neck.
To manage my cancer-related fears I’ve made changes to my lifestyle, as recommended, in part, by Bowel Cancer UK and the medical team.
I can understand and rationalise anxieties associated with my cancer diagnosis, treatment, and prognosis.
What I’m struggling with now is how the fear-cycle has spread to my professional life.
Pre-cancer I loved the variety of my professional life – speaking, teaching and dancing. I embraced and encouraged uncertainty. I tried new things and was generally unafraid of failure. I was unafraid of life.
But cancer has seeded a new framework of fear, which sees uncertainty as a threat and where failure can be fatal.
I’ve noticed how this framework of fear has started to encroach on how I think about my professional life.
For example,
But this is NOT where I want to be. I think these feelings are indicative of a fear-cycle spreading from my experience of cancer to other areas of my life.
Anxiety and fear can change the way people think. In some contexts, this is necessary to protect us and to keep us safe, but in other contexts it just gets in the way.
But I don’t want to be driven by fear in my professional life.
I want, as much as I can, to start to create a mental separation between the fear and anxiety that is associated with my cancer experience, and that which is leaking into my professional life, and causing too many unwanted changes.
Cancer is scary, and life is exciting.
To keep it exciting I must learn to cut out the fear and live.
Dr Peter Lovatt
23rd October 2021
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